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Thoughts 9/22/2005 September 22, 2005

Posted by Kelsey Martineau in Philosophy.
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It’s been a while since I’ve posted. I’ve been really busy lately. The hurricane threw me off. Two weeks without power is hard. It felt like about a year or two. There were days that I did absolutely nothing but sat on my porch and stared for hours, thinking about things, contemplating. I’m glad it’s over and everything is almost back to normal. I have been praying a lot lately, more than I used to. I am trying to discontinue my use of profanity, although it is tough sometimes. I know God has used me in the last two months and I think He has a lot planned for me in my future. I feel I lost a friend over one particular ordeal, but sacrifices sometimes have to be made. The details of the situation are irrelevant, but just to me, it meant a lot. It showed me that God is willing to work with anyone in any situation, no matter what. That really is an encouraging thought.

Other than that, not too much has been happening. I hate how people come and go, and one day you think they are your friend but the next they have nothing to do with you. Sometimes it’s almost like you are being used. It doesn’t really matter though; it will all even out in the end.

I am still contemplating on whether I have free will or not. I am so inclined to believe Determinism, but I just don’t know. Determinism is basically a theory that states that everything you do depends on what you did in the past, which to an extent it does. I am writing this blog right now, why? Because I started a blog back in November of last year. I am writing to contribute to it, therefore I didn’t really choose to write today. Don’t get me wrong, I’m choosing to write what I write, but when it boils down to it, I’m doing it because of something I’ve done in my past. You could say, then why did you start a blog? Well I thought it was a cool idea, therefore I didn’t really choose to do it, and I just did it because I was destined to. I don’t know what to believe anymore.